Life can just be so crazy. I can't seem to understand anything anymore. A few days ago, I was in a great mood because Vin and I loaded up our schedule with work and finally created a real estate package that we are happy going out to do together. Together as a company, as Simply Visual Productions. This was a huge step for us.... Until the other morning. 

After completing all the contracts and packing the car to head up north, the realtor calls and tells us they want to hold off on the video because of the weather. Understandable. Now luckily we didn't drive too far because that would have made it a bit worse, but to top it off, we call her to reschedule and realize there was actually an issue with the pricing agreement. Working with another company can be such a challenging thing, especially when it comes to valuing the work that is being done. I will explain exactly what went on here and I will also hope my clients read this at some point because maybe they should hear the dead honest truth from somebody who's been doing this for a while and actually cares about it.

Begin Rant. If you are a real estate agent listing a luxury property.... WHY DON'T YOU MARKET YOUR HOME CORRECTLY?? I have been shooting real estate for two years and I will tell you that when I first started I was not too good at it. I wasn't very good at photography in general. As time went on, my passion for it grew and I fell in love with what I was able to do with the camera. Because of that, I worked harder and harder to create better work. I have continuously been upgrading my gear and working as hard as I can to get better at what I do for the sake of myself and my business. 

Today, I realize that I have hit a wall. I am at a point where giving up would feel so right. I deal with people who don't understand the value of my work on a daily basis. People that are cheap and not willing to pay for better quality, a better skill set.. When I work with these real estate agents, I can tell that some of them care about their listings and want to do things other people aren't doing to market their homes. I know that they know photos are essential and I also know that video is a newer thing for them to understand. However, the part that I cannot understand is how they can claim they are marketing a luxury home when literally the only thing they are concerned about cost. My question is, does good work come at a low cost?

Taking photos and videos is easy though. I don't have to do anything but push a button. My drone fly's itself, my photos and videos look the way they do straight out of camera. My gear is cheap, my computers do all of my writing and editing, my car drives itself and I.... I'm just a fucking object. 

I decided to create my own business for a reason. I don't want this to seem like it's coming off in the wrong way, so I will start by saying that I respect everybody who is happy doing what they do. If you are a garbage man and you love it, I am happy for you. If you are a singer and you struggle to make ends meet but you love what you do because you know you'll make it... I respect you for that. If you are an accountant who works in a cubicle all day and you have a family but you are 100% happy with your job...I respect that too. However, for me personally, I don't want to do what a majority of people do after college. I don't want a 9-5 job, I don't want to work for somebody else. I don't feel like that is something I would be able to do, it just isn't for me.

I want to be me. I want to create. I want to build something of my own. I want to work with people who fucking care about things, people who have a passion to do what they do. I want to work with people who respect me and respect my work. I want to work with people who share a love for what they do.

All that being said, being cheap wont get you far. I put a lot of time and effort into the things I do and when people don't understand that my pricing is set that way for a reason... for me to live, eat, put a roof over my head, pay my bills and actually be a part of society like everybody else, I don't want anything to do with them. I can reason with you to an extent but there comes a time where some people cross the line and I lose a lot of respect for them. End Rant.

How did I get to the point I'm at today? Why has my work gotten to the level it's at? Some people really wonder. I can't actually explain it, but I can tell you that I have been working my ass off for a very long time now. I am good at flying my drone cause I have logged over 500 flights. I fly almost every single day, I travel all over NJ to shoot things that I think would look interesting from the sky. I take good portraits because I reach out to people to shoot with them and create images that we can both enjoy. I spend a lot of money on my car and gas because that is how I get around and get the practice in that I need to be on the level I'm at.

I'm not happy where I am at. I am content. I don't want to be content, I want to strive to do better. I know a lot of people really like what I do, I like what I do but I know that there is another level to it. A level that I want to get to and a level that I would actually genuinely be happy at. I've learned a lot over the past few years. Today was a day to absorb all that I have done and realize that I have much more potential than I myself even think I have. From here on out, I am done with the bullshit and ready for bigger things. I am going to work harder, stop dealing with people and things that hold me back and I am going to grow this business I have created and turn it into something I can look back on and say, "I am so fucking happy I stuck to what I wanted to be doing rather then settling where I was."

A long blog for all you readers out there but tonight I hit a level of stress that I felt I needed to write about. No pictures in this one but more to come when I can get my mind back into a better place.