Every time I sit down to write, I realize that I reflect on the past few days or weeks of my life instead of maybe writing things I look forward to or want to do. I guess that is something I can work on in the future but then again, does anybody even read these??
This past week for me, I have been drowning in my own work. I struggle to find time to edit everything I have and also struggle to make time to do things for myself like connect with people or go out and fly so I can create more content. With all of the editing I have, I put shooting off to the side and tried to force myself to use that time to meet new people. I am glad that I chose to do this because just this week alone, I have met so many awesome people that I would love to work with and become better friends with. I think the more people you know, the better off you are, especially when you are working with the right people. They always say to surround yourself with positivity and people who push themselves to get to where they want to be and I honestly think that is an environment I need to be in more. It's hard for me to be that lone wolf who does everything on his own, but it is so much easier to rely on myself than it is to rely on other people.
One huge problem I have been facing lately is due to the amount of content I have been creating. I set such high standards for myself that a lot of the content I shoot is just overlooked because to me, it isn't good enough to do anything with. I see that this is a good thing and a bad thing because it pushes me to strive for perfection, but at the same time it hurts because some of the stuff I am doing is really great and yet, I can't seem to understand why I don't think it is. Maybe this is some sort of a phase I'm stuck in, I think I need to continue to move on with my life, move out from home and actually live on my own and do things that I want to do. There are so many influences out there that push me to keep up with my work and there are also a lot of people who look up to me for what I do. I want to find a balance between those two things and create content for myself while also being able to meet up with others and collaborate with them.
As each week goes by, I learn something new. This week I learned a little more about people, emotions and stress as I face each one day after day. I may sound like a miserable depressed man, but I am not. I take all of these experiences and I learn from them which is something that helps me grow. If I want to be successful on my own and run a business that means so much to me, these are all things I will have to be able to deal with. Like any other job out there, there are always obstacles but I personally believe that we are our biggest obstacle. Being able to overcome our fears and push ourselves to do what we really want to do is not easy by any means, but when we are able to push those boundaries, good things come.
I am going to finish up the large amount of work I have and I am going to make time to do some of the shooting I want to do. My biggest thing right now is finding the time to collaborate with other artists or people to create more awesome content for us. I have a lot of new ideas that will take time to create, but if I don't find the time to create them, guess what... I never will :) so I'm not going to make that an excuse.
Keep your eyes open for some more work coming soon. I am looking to play around a bit more with portraits because I find that I can be as creative as I want with them. I am also looking to combine some portrait work with my aerial work to create content that is still fairly new. Exciting stuff! Here are some photos for your eyes now.