Updating

I will start this post saying that my "i" key is not working very well and I have to press it down harder to get it to actually work. Very annoying  -_- but what's life without any trouble?? Good question.

It is Monday morning, 11am and I am desk bound for the day writing articles, blogs and this. I have a few other things to do and some editing to get going on but it is kinda important for me to keep up with this and make sure my site is looking good. I am falling behind in a few sections which is funny cause those are the ones I do for work but also the ones I update the least. I guess you really can tell the drone has taken over my life.

Another exciting thing, I took a shoe box and slapped a comfy piece of cloth in it then put it up on my desk.... Now my cat can sit with me while I'm on my computer :) She's adorable... and I'm a weirdo, but that's alright with me haha.

I've been planning bigger and bigger projects recently as I have mentioned in a few posts before. This weekend I am going to be collaborating with two portrait photographers and a few models in AC. I think taking myself out of my comfort zone will be a good thing for me to do. I need to find more work that I really enjoy doing otherwise I feel like I am forcing myself to create content that doesn't have any meaning to me. I don't like that.

In a recent post on my iPhone Instagram account, I mentioned that I have been really discouraged lately and struggle to like a lot of the work I have been doing. This has been very tough for me because I have set my standards so high for what I expect out of myself and my work. I am getting through that faze now and I am going to work a little harder to create things I truly enjoy. It is so easy to get down on yourself and crumple but it hurts more when you let yourself get stuck there. We can always make excuses but literally... they are the only things that hold you back from really doing what you want.

I will share two articles I just wrote on Fstoppers just going over some real basic things about personal work and social media. I know that I can't be the only one struggling here and there so I may as well share some ways about how I go through it all and just hope if anyone else even reads this, it can help them out too.

https://fstoppers.com/aerial/why-we-sometimes-have-accept-failure-learning-your-mistakes-204414

https://fstoppers.com/apps/insight-instagram-look-how-algorithm-works-205485

This last year has been one of the toughest rides for me yet. Between actual work, personal work, relationships, family and so on, so much has happened, so much has changed and I think it really could all be for the better. Right now, it feels good to be able to support myself at 23 and do what I love. Though I struggle from time to time, it is a part of life and will only teach me more and make me stronger. I can tell you if it weren't for photography.. I would not be where I am today. I am so thankful for all I have done and all I have been through. I Know this is kinda a messy post on my end here, so here are some pictures! Been messing around with composition and lines a lot lately.